This winter I have let my beard hang like litter from my face,
and boiled tea, and for a time, looked on and longed to be taken
alongside the fields by undisturbed whiteness. There I would mind
the cold for its finch-thick sill of bone, and watch last week’s split ash
burn like the debris of a life that was not my own. I would learn from
the worn earth what we are when myth gives way to the custom of blood.
I would show you, if you asked, artifacts buried dirt-wet by our habit
of prayer and violence, their signs brined by the slushing of rust, this bit
of news choked into silence by the sod. And then you would see what
would surrender there as an illusion, and the white collapse would be
so complete, that like the splitting of suns, only images of dead light
were left. I have risen low some morning from the grey vault of March
to fetch old dogs from the bony thicket of yard, and found heaving
in their wet paws with bent blue wings of a songbird who could not
last the cold. It went white there in the fallow waste of field,
while the land went on, snow-blind to its song.